Are We Just Delusional?
Are we delusional for believing that pedophilia does not define us? Some would say yes, but the Bible (and Puddleglum) tell a different story.
Identity
Were We Born With Pedophilia? Part 1
Regardless of whether pedophilia is nature, nurture, or a complex mix of the two, God’s moral standard always applies. Yet we can always choose to follow Christ.
Loss
Living with pedophilia usually comes with significant losses; no surprise there. But unlike most other situations of loss, it can be very difficult to communicate to anyone what we’ve lost, and why it matters.
The Satanic, Cowardly, and Anti-Biblical Nature of Side B Theology
For those of you who don’t already know, there’s a new theology in town. Side B: a comfortable, easy, and embarrassment-free way to reconcile our modern understanding of sexuality and the Bible. No more awkward conversations at parties. No more suffering reproach for the name of Christ. No more looking like the stuffy old evangelical with outdated beliefs. Now you … Read more
St. Christopher – The Patron Saint of Pedophiles
I’m not Orthodox, but there is one aspect of the Orthodox tradition that I have lately come to appreciate. St Christopher – the dog headed saint. For those of you who are unfamiliar with St Christopher, or who have traditionally seen him depicted as a man like any other saint, may at first find it very odd to see him … Read more
Should I Kill Myself? – A Pedophile’s Torment
If you are in urgent need of help, click here and call the hotline corresponding to your country. So, you’ve just realized that you’re a pedophile, and that no matter what you do, you can’t make it go away. What do you do now? Do you kill yourself? Or do you risk life as a pedophile? Sadly this is a … Read more
Moving Beyond the Evangelical Right
Watching And Reacting It has been a sad thing, watching American culture slowly unravel. Many people have called this a polarization spiral – something married couples do when things aren’t working out. She pursues him with criticism, and in response, he moves away and shuts down causing her to pursue him with further criticism. However I don’t believe this to … Read more
Am I Demon Possessed?
Back around 2012 and 2013 I was incredibly unstable – that is when I was able to feel anything at all. Most of the time I was depressed, but when I wasn’t, I was either so euphoric I would do crazy things like riding my bike down two flights of concrete stairs, only to fall off half way down and … Read more
An Update – December 2020
It’s now been around 17 months since I started my therapy. Things towards this end certainly seem to be a lot easier than when I first started off. I certainly feel a lot more grounded and confident. It’s been such an interesting journey of identity and healing, sometimes painful, but I’m glad God has given me the ability to stick … Read more
The Love of God
The Love of God is a phrase that gets thrown around often. But for those of us who have grown up in an abusive environment, the word ‘love’ may mean something very different to those who didn’t. In order to better understand the love of God, we need to be specific about what it looks like in a practical sense, … Read more
What Does God Think About Me?
Be still and quiet for a moment, and ask yourself, “What does God think about me?” Maybe your stomach gets knotted up. You imagine that God must surely disapprove of you, and has all sorts of judgments against you. It’s discouraging. You already dislike yourself, and so it’s better not to think about God. I know the feeling. Have you … Read more